The Psalm reads (in part):
There is no soundness in my flesh because of thine indignation; Neither is there any health in my bones because of my sin. For mine iniquities are gone over my head: As a heavy burden they are too heavy for me. My wounds are loathsome and corrupt, Because of my foolishness. I am pained and bowed down greatly; I go mourning all the day long. For my loins are filled with burning; And there is no soundness in my flesh. I am faint and sore bruised: I have groaned by reason of the disquietness of my heart. (38:3-8, ASV)
One man said, “Suffering is a form of God’s discipline in the school of righteousness” (VanGemeren, p. 352). When one reflects on the teachings of righteousness as seen in Jesus and as it has found a home in the heart, the discipline experienced is weighty. “Your not wicked, your just feeling blue” is the line in a song lyric (Feeling Blue” Jazzmasters), but when one fails the standard of righteousness, you can’t help but feel as wicked as one can – especially when it seems to be a continuing struggle. David knew well how he felt, and the weight of his guilt did not allow him to see brightness during the course of the day (or days). It has been said that time is a healer, but time does heal guilt, it only moves it further and further back into the recesses of the mind.
Can you relate to these sentiments? If you know what David knew you can.